Category Archives: The Daily

Resilience

There is something to say about resilience. It is a borderline characteristic that can lead to great folly or great fortune. The question is, whether it is a part of you or not. Forced resilience (although resilience always takes a certain amount of force!) is a characteristic that is often mixed with heightened sense of pride and ego. It is difficult to part from a forced sense of resilience because of it’s tie to one’s mental and personal core . It is powerful and often becomes stubbornness. This type of resilience often leads to folly, as a person tries to force the way through something that is not meant to be.

True resilience is recognizing ones own will to succeed, to push beyond limitations and preservere. This form of resilience does not allow itself to be abused, neglected or wasted. It takes a certain type of person to recognize this within themselves, it also takes a certain type of person to recognize the line between forced and true resilience.

It a scale, that can tip easily depending on factors surrounding the individual. These factors include other people, the environment, society, health and financial stability. To be resilient at a task requires the rest of one’s life to be solid and stable so that the task can be conquered. Otherwise, the rest of the perons life will crumble away any efforts set toward any task

People carry their burdens with them to work, play and even worship. When someone is resilient, these burdens are removed in actuality or merely mentally, allowing for full and proper action, which can lead to resounding success.

Not always do results come immediately. Resilience requires patience and commitment to the task at hand. Sometimes years can go by, look at the great pyramids and other architectural wonders of the world. Imagine the resilience of purpose was required to build such monuments…without even any practical purpose!

The resilience to be successful, wealthy and accomplished comes from good patience and good judgment on projects chosen.

Be thankful for your gifts, resilient ones. Watch your environment closely. Expend your energies wisely and rally forth toward your goals and ambitions with courage and honor!

The Friar and the Muslim

Watching Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves (yes, I know, old movie) I couldn’t help but think about the encounter between his Muslim friend and the Friar. When the Friar realizes the error in his prejudice toward the “barbarian”, he makes amends. He offers a drink to the Muslim, who cannot accept.  He exuberantly explains that he will drink and his new barbarian friend can talk.

It must have been such an amazing conversation. The wisdom that the Muslim carried around from his knowledge of the Qu’ran, and the revelations the Friar would have at the similarity of their religions (Islam having come from Christain / Jewish backgrounds). Conversations like this fascinate me. It must be such an emotionally and mentally fulfilling event, when masters of faith unite and converse peacefully.

I think a movie could be made out of such a topic, if filled properly in the right historical context. Nothing like a sit down Q&A, but a more entertaining conversation between famous master’s; with energy and excitement. I suppose not many others would find this entertaining. I have a great interest in high philosophy and comparative religions. I enjoy reading and listening to others ideals on religion and life, physical and metaphysical.

Everyone has a story, every person is trained differently and thinks different things about what they have been taught. The boundless experiences that come from meeting others who have respect and interest in the world around them fascinates me.

Ocular Migrane: What is it? Food Poisoning? Genetics? Chocolate?

I’ve had a ocular migrane before. I didjn’t knwo what one was until recently, but it has definately happened. It used to happen very infrequently, maybe once every one or two years. However, in the past 3 to 4 months, they have occured maybe two or three times.

They are terrible. They blur my entire vision. Mine is not exactly as others describe, it is more like a color full blur, like a bad Gaussian blur that eventually blocks out nearly all my sight. I just had one a few minutes ago, and it passed after 30 minutes of waiting around nearly blind. I couldn’t read text on the screen, and couldnt do much else until it was gone.

This morning I felt nauseous when I woke up around 7:30. I rushed downstairs and took a shower and the nausea went away. Then the migrane a couple hours after…

I did have some very old steak (1 week+) last night that I probably shouldnt have had since my stomach is very sensitive. It didn’t even taste good. I had mixed it with some marinara eggplant I had made (also 4+ days old). I really need to stop eating old food. It’s terrible for me. I usually avoid eating leftovers, i rpefer frozen foods, but I feel guilty when food goes bad and eventually get too it… a little too late.

The migrane didn’t start till I took a couple bites out of a chocolate muffin a co worker gave me. I wonder if that had anything to do with it…was it the trigger? Perhaps the combination of stress (from driving 1 hour + every day to work) and chocolate or other chemical trigger caused the migrane. All I had other than that since the meat was pinapple, some organic tofu hot wings, oatmeal and coffee. The coffee may add to the effect as well, as it constricts the blood vessels which is partially what causes ocular migrane, constricted blood flow behind the eyes.

The funny thing about ocular migraines is that they are not binocular, they occur whether you have one eye open or not. You can even see the blur when you close your eyes. It’s kind of scary, but reassuring at the same time. I rather know that my eyeball is fine (hard wiring), and that it’s just a glitch in my software that can more than likely be worked out (brain ;P). I know it may seem strange, but that’s how I feel anyways.

I feel a little tired now with a slight real headache. I need to eat a little more I think as my stomach still is not right. Life is really stressful during the week now, mostly due to commute. I am glad that this vision issue did not occur while driving. It did once long ago and it was not a pleasant experience at all, I was really worried I would miss something or not notice someone coming at me out of my peripheral vision. I rely on my peripheral vision alot, I normally pride myself in my ability to take in an entire visual scene at once and process it.

It’s one of the reasons I am good at gaming, and at catching people doing naughty things on their computers at the office. I can see what they are doing before they even know I am there. My brother used to hate that when I lived with my parents, no amount of alt tab can hide that taskbar!!!

It’s been tough remembering to write this blog. I will stay vigilant and try and keep up with it as much as possible, I’m already behind 5 days.

Patience Politics and Business

Sheesh! A week has gone by after commiting to write a blog a day and I haven’t been able to write anything! Memorial Day weekend was a blur, mostly spent gaming and relaxing with neighbors. I got to meet quite a few new people. So…even though I was not able to commit as I had originally planned, we will continue from here.

One interesting fellow I met is a man named Harper Davidson. An early retiree, he made his career in life insurance sales working for New York Life Insurance company. He was an older man, visiting only for the weekend to mourn the loss of a stepson. My conversation with him took place at a get together in the backyard of a friend of his stepson. Whose house was quite impressive (having a full size racketball court, tennis court, coi pond, etc.)

The subject was politics and business. He had been out of Life Insurance for a long while, and was happy about it. He mentioned his company had dabbled in Health Insurance but quickly realized it was difficult to make a profi in. I told him about the difficulties I have found in the Health Insurance field and the disasted that is Health Insurance reform. I really don’t know if I will have a job in the next coming months. Why? Because of this ridiculous law that mentions that health insurance companies can only use 15 % of the premium for profit, annihalating broker’s points in the process.

If this trend toward government involvement in healthcare continues, we are going to see skyrocketing premiums to make up for points, and when the uninsurables hit the market in 2012 – 2014…lets just say we can forget about affordable or quality health insurance. Harper agreed wth me and sympathized with me, but again was glad to be out of the business. I am questioning how I have been able to survive for so long. Fortunately as an IT Professional, I have more options than many others…it’s not like my career depends on a health insurance license.

On that note ,of course, the conversation took a turn toward Obama and the democrats. I voted for Obama, yes, but can I say I am happy with his performance? Not so much. Many people feel duped by him. I kinda of sympathize for him. He has a tough job, and as I figured, ran into the brick wall of current policy and performance in politics. He could either conform or be eaten alive…at least that’s what I hope has happened. I really don’t consider myself a polical zealot, and try not to take side, but I probably will be voting republican in the coming election to mix things up a bit again.

It’s funny how i started off very Republican because of my parents, only to have that taken away by youthful idealism…then t have ot come crashing back when I finally experience the job market and start to understand the reasons why some things are in place. There is alot of abuse in the system…this capitalistic (not democratic at all) system. But there is alot of good that comes from it to

The only time I disagree with the performance of capitalism is when it stunts the growth and acceptance of precious technology that can grow exponentially but is bound to market prices, profits and trickling features & functionality.

Not bad for day two writing out my thoughts. As we can see the topics are kind of scattered. I am sure I can learn to make multiple articles base don single coherent thoughts instead of jumping around…but this is so much fun.

On Blogs and Blogging

Do any of you ever feel your hiding behind a mask of transparency online? That you are allowing yourself to play roles that are you, but only halfheartedly you, since you always have that “ulterior” motive to make it do something for you or reinforce your online identity? Do you feel you actually care what others think of you and that’s why you “don’t” post this or that? Maybe it’s irrelevant, or no one will care, or it’ll make you look silly.

Trying to be the perfect person online is difficult, because it has to reflect your personal reality and personal living as well. Liars can’t keep up.  Keep your life clean and your online life is clean. However, there comes the moment where you have those thoughts, feelings or experiences you may not share just because “it may not be right”, or “give the wrong impression”. Even though they are not scandalous, problematic or reputation hurting…we don’t share them. We hide them and forget them. We lose a lot by missing them.

I have the desire to write, but every other site I have created has been so specific to one thing or another…I feel I am spread out. Plus, I am always concerned with what my Image is on this platform or that, or peoples opinions on the subjects on which I write, I really don’t have anything for me…as narcissistic as it may seem. I have alot of thoughts that go through my head I feel I should share but never end up doing so.

So here is my idea…blog every day, about some “Thing”. These “Things” obviously have to do with my daily life, profession, thoughts and experiences. But that’s ok. As long as I express them in a clean, concise and expressive manner…I think others might actually enjoy it.

So…a collection of blog posts, 1 daily blog, and maybe an extra here or there. This includes weekends too! Should total more than 365 pieces of content. Not too shabby for a personal blog if I can make it.

I will be using WordPress as  I have been learning lots about SEO and I feel that word press’ category structure is one of the best for URL’s I have seen. I’ll pretty up the template eventually with images reflecting my online and real life, even though I am usually lazy about those things.

So this is the first post, the beginning of the journey. Get to know me, leave a comment…lets have a discussion. I’m tired of writing and people not responding. Please do so.

More to come…for sure.